Literature
Amor Fati 2 Parts 12 + 13
Twelve Restless My initial stay at the state beach was for five days. The first two days I didn’t sleep. The drug gave me too much stimulation and I had few outlets for my energy. I went for short walks along the shore, then back to my van where I did detailed drawings in my sketchbook. On the third day, I purposely didn’t use the crystal, to force myself to eat and sleep for a while. I did more meth on the fourth day, but my thoughts turned paranoid. I didn’t leave the van except to go to the bathroom. I was afraid I was being watched and continuously changed my parking spot. On the fifth day I left the parking lot for a couple of reasons. I needed to get gas for the van. Then I went to a car stereo dealer on Harbor Boulevard and had a simple car alarm installed. I asked the alarm guy if he knew someone who could build me a bench seat with a lock box inside, and he told me he could do it over the weekend. I put my gun, money, and drugs in my backpack, and took a bus to Katella